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Sunday, July 26, 2015

The Giving Tree

   


 I’d like to discuss one of My favorite children’s stories with you today.  ‘The Giving Tree’ by Shel Silverstein.

    There are two camps with strong feelings about this book… either it’s loved and treasured or despised and banned.   The simple story written by Silverstein sparks some very heated debates.  If you’ve just listened to it being read it you understand why already.  The tale isn’t your normal happy ending children’s tale.  In fact Silverstein always ended his tales in a bit of uncertainty.  He himself said once about a child having a happy ending, “The child asks, ‘Why don’t I have this happiness thing you’re telling me about?’” 

    I have to agree.  Thinking about it most of My favorite books, stories, movies, etc all tend to have an ending that’s either left open for question or rather sad to most.  I find beauty in reality.  Life doesn’t end with two people riding away on white stallions holding hands as triumphant romantic music plays… life is long and brutal at times.  It’s not always this fairy tale with a happy ending…. We can always find joy in where we are in the moment in something but circumstances aren’t always ‘happy’.

    It’s not written as a useful exemplary tale like ‘’Hands Are Not for Hitting’’ Instead it’s a tale of what people can give and take from each other in a relationship, in a family, or in society as a whole.

    The story itself doesn’t praise the tree nor does it endorse the boy.  They each do the very particular things they do, and say the things they say.  Their relationship is put to us as emotionally realistic, as it is, instead of as it ought to be.

    When the tree suggests, to the grown man who wants a home and family, that he should climb her branches to play would suggest she knows little of the boy she loves.  When as he grows the boy becomes unkind in his actions toward the tree, more and more, his knowledge and understanding of her are shown to be even more limited than hers of him.  They are both flawed and those flaws dictate the path they take.

    I find it beautifully ironic that “Happy” is the last word of the story. The sadness one feels in reading this book so full of the word “happy” is complicated just like the emotion itself.  Each happy alters the happy that follows it.  Through each repetition of the word the language is made more complex until at the end it’s as inside-out and upside-down as the emotion itself.

    After all, what truly is happiness?  What really is love?  Can these emotions honestly be summed up in neat little packages with pretty little bows to pass down to the generation below us?  I don’t think so no.  Happiness and love are complex and deep.  They are too deep to wrap up on a kids story or to tell in a fairy tale.  


The Giving Tree is a disturbing story of unconditional love and a tender tale of the monsters we are.

Thursday, July 9, 2015

Mistress Manda and slave bill's Contract.

AGREEMENT

Upon signing, this is a binding contract between the Dominant and the submissive.

1. TERMS

1.1. CONTRACT

1.1.1. This contract will be in effect for 3 months (90 days), unless other terms are agreed upon later.
1.1.2. This contract can be extended at any time, with consent from both parties.
1.1.3. Alterations can be made to this contract, in respect to the terms set forth in SUBSECTION 1.4 and SECTION 2.
1.1.4. The parties enter into this contract on the signed date, fully aware of its nature, and undertake to abide by its conditions, without exception.

1.2. SAFETY

1.2.1. The Dominant and submissive agree that anything discussed, or acted upon; in regards to this contract will be consensual.
1.2.2. The list of hard limits (SECTION 3) will be strictly adhered to, unless otherwise discussed.
1.2.3. If needed, the following Safewords should be used:
1.2.3.1.  YELLOW: This word is to be used when the submissive is close to his limit of endurance, but does not want to cease all activity. 
1.2.3.2. RED: This word is to be used when the submissive is beyond his level of endurance, and wants to stop everything immediately.
1.2.4. The submissive will not be punished, in any way, for using the Safeword.

1.3. AVAILABILITY

1.3.1. The submissive will make himself available for contact by the Dominant at all times he is not at work.
1.3.2. The submissive must ask permission to do anything that might infarct on the time of the Dominant.
1.3.3. The Dominant will respect the work, sleep hours, and important family obligations of the submissive.
1.3.4. The Dominant may release the submissive from Her service at any time. The submissive may request his release at any time, and the request will be granted at the discretion of the Dominant.
1.3.5. The terms of this contract are in effect whether at home or in public.

1.4. COMMUNICATION

1.4.1. When the submissive is talking to the Dominant, he must remember his role.
1.4.2. If the submissive needs to express his feelings in a way that is not within his role, or would like to discuss terms related to the contract, he will do so via email with the Dominant’s consent.
1.4.3. The submissive will write a journal entry each night reflecting on his relationship with the Dominant.  If the quality falls short of expectations, the Dominant will define the requirements of the journal entry more specifically.
1.4.4. The submissive will read and respond to all blog entries of the Dominant.

2. ROLES/RIGHTS

2.1. DOMINANT

2.0.0. ROLE: 

 The Dominant shall exert as much control as possible over the submissive with the intention of improving the life of the submissive through Total Power Exchange.

2.1.1. EXPECTATIONS

2.1.1.1. The Dominant is to provide the submissive with all necessary training and guidance to properly serve the Dominant. The reason behind training will be explained to the submissive unless the Dominant has reasons to not do so.
2.1.1.2. Unless previously discussed, no permanent marks will be left on the submissive during punishment, and there will be no injuries that require medical attention.
2.1.1.3. The Dominant will maintain Her own health and hygiene, in an acceptable manner as She sees fit.
2.1.1.4. The Dominant shall always hold Herself to a higher standard to be the example of growth She wishes to see in the submissive.







2.1.2. RIGHTS

2.1.2.1. The Dominant accepts the submissive as Her own, to control, dominate, train, discipline, and correct during the term stated in 1.1.
2.1.2.2. The Dominant has the right to use the submissive’s body at any time, in any matter She sees fit, sexually or otherwise.
2.1.2.3. The Dominant may discipline or correct the submissive at any time, to ensure that the submissive fully appreciates his role of subservience, and to discourage unacceptable conduct. The Dominant shall explain the reason for discipline and offer the submissive the opportunity to ask clarifying questions before the discipline/correction is administered

2.2. SUBMISSIVE

2.2.0. ROLE:  

The submissive shall submit his will, personal choices, and all associated freedoms to the Dominant with the understanding that She will use Her power to improve him as a submissive and as a person.  The submissive will recognize at all times that he is of lower priority than the Dominant’s immediately family.  He lives to serve.

2.2.0.1. RIGHTS:

 The submissive has a right to his own feelings, thoughts, and beliefs.  

2.2.1. EXPECTATIONS

2.2.1.1. The submissive will provide a safe environment for his Dominant to use him fully and without inhibition.
2.2.1.2. The submissive accepts the Dominant as his Mistress, with the understanding that he is now property of the Dominant. He will remember his role in regard to the Dominant at all times.
2.2.1.3. The submissive shall serve the Dominant in any way, and shall endeavor to please the Dominant at all times, to the best of his ability.
2.2.1.4. The submissive is to obey the Dominant in all things. Subject to the terms and limitations in this contract, the submissive shall offer the Dominant any pleasures She requires, and will accept Her training and guidance in whatever form it may take.
2.2.1.5. The submissive will conduct himself in a respectful and modest manner.
2.2.1.6. The submissive will not enter into any sexual relations with anyone other than the Dominant unless She so desires.
2.2.1.7. The submissive shall be held accountable for any wrongdoings when not in the presence of the Dominant.
2.2.1.8. The submissive must obtain permission from the Dominant to make purchases for any single item above $200.
2.2.1.9. The submissive will not touch the Dominant in a sexual manner without asking for permission.
2.2.2.0 The submissive will meditate for 10 minutes every day in the specific manner that pleases the Dominant.
2.2.2.1. The submissive is to be in bed at a time specified by the Dominant unless She a) leaves it up to the submissive, or b) exceptional circumstances mean it must be broken. If it must be broken it will not happen without the Dominants understanding first.
2.2.2.2. The submissive is not allowed to drink alcohol in excess of one drink per day, or use any substance, without first acquiring permission from the Dominant. When in the presence of the Dominant the submissive must first acquire permission before having any drink.
2.2.2.3. The submissive will eat food as determined by himself unless the Dominant instructs him otherwise.
2.2.2.4. The submissive will choose his own drinks unless the Dominant instructs him otherwise.
2.2.2.5. The submissive shall determine an appropriate amount of calories each day.  The Dominant may at any time switch the submissive to a restricted calorie diet not to fall below 1800 calories per day.
2.2.2.6. The submissive will greet the Dominant every morning and wish the Dominant goodnight every night.
2.2.2.7. Each day, the submissive will choose his clothing and get them approved by the Dominant. He will photo what he plans on wearing to get it approved. If the Dominant doesn’t reply within 20 minutes it’s to be assumed approved.
2.2.2.8. The submissive will drive to the Dominant’s hometown and rent a hotel for two days one weekend of every month.  This can only be foregone with permission from the Dominant.
2.2.2.9. All vacation days that are unplanned by January 30th will be granted to the Dominant.  Should any of them need to be used for anything deemed an emergency or of critical importance, the Dominant must approve their usage.
2.2.3.0. The submissive is expected to have the hotel room prepared before the Dominants arrival to her specifications.
2.2.3.1. The submissive will make dinner for the Dominant and whomever else She desires at any time, and prepare the menu She desires
2.2.3.2. The submissive will keep his home presentable and ready for the Dominant as if She were living with him.
2.2.3.3. When the submissive is in the Dominant’s home area he shall clean Her household to Her specifications.
2.2.3.4. The submissive shall maintain his good health, shall seek medical attention when needed, and keep the Dominant informed of any health issues (mental or physical) that may arise.
2.2.3.5. The submissive shall not pleasure himself sexually, without asking permission from the Dominant. If the submissive does not receive a response from the Dominant within 10 minutes of a request, permission is assumed not granted. His cock, balls, ass, and nipples are her toys and he must not touch them sexually without direct permission.
2.2.3.6. The submissive shall serve any person the Dominant chooses as long as the limits per 4.2.1. are not breached.
2.2.3.7. The submissive shall have all his time accounted for each day and provide a detailed outline of his activities to the Dominant at Her request.
2.2.3.8. The submissive shall perform all masturbation, edging sessions, ruined orgasms, and otherwise on webcam for the Dominant and any company She chooses.  he is expected to show his face.  No video and/or pictures will be taken that will personally identify the submissive specifically.
2.2.3.9. The submissive will bathe once a day, and must obtain permission from the Dominant to bathe more than once a day.
2.2.4.0. The submissive will oblige to being used as an object by the Dominant.  This includes objectification (foot stool, etc.) and automatonization (massage slave that does not fatigue, tongue slave)
2.2.4.1. The submissive will not act or speak in a demeaning way to the Dominant, Her husband,or Her children. 

3. PUNISHMENT

3.1. The Dominant will make it clear to the submissive that he is about to be punished.  This will be followed by an explanation of the reason for punishment and the intended results of the punishment.  
3.2. The submissive will not look into the eyes of the Dominant during punishment, unless requested.
3.3. Following punishments, the submissive will thank the Dominant for correcting his behavior.  The submissive will include in his journal entry what he learned and how he will avoid repeating the mistake or nonconformance in the future.

4. LIMITS

4.1. DOMINANT

4.1.1. HARD LIMITS:

 Sissification, Scat, Age play, Children, Animals, Lactation, Rape play, Diapers, Tickle Torture, Male Supremacy, Gorean, Race Play, Breeding.

4.2. SUBMISSIVE

4.2.1. HARD LIMITS:

  CBT, kissing men, male feet, homosexual activity without Mistress present, public humiliation (filmed or in/near submissive’s home town), scat, sleep deprivation, kids, animals, blood, sadists, ANYTHING that could negatively impact career, consistent feminization, anything with health implications, body modification (ball stretching, ridiculous sized dildos, tattoos, etc.), shaving body hair that is not beneath underwear (arms, knees, chest), restroom restrictions.

5. GOALS

5.1. DOMINANT

5.1.1. To maintain open and honest communication.
5.1.2. To provide the submissive with any and all reference material he needs to fulfill his goals as a submissive.
5.1.3. To create an open and comfortable environment where the submissive feels safe and has the opportunity to ask questions without judgement.
5.1.4. To aid the submissive in creating a positive self-image.

5.2. SUBMISSIVE

5.2.1. To strive to overcome feelings of guilt or shame, and all inhibitions that interfere with the submissive’s ability to serve the Dominant, and limit the submissive’s growth as a submissive.
5.2.2. To maintain open and honest communication. To reveal his thoughts, feelings, and desires without hesitation or embarrassment.
5.2.3. To strive towards maintenance of a positive self-image and development of realistic goals.
5.2.4. To work with the Dominant to become a happy and self-fulfilled individual.
5.2.5. To work against any negative aspects of his ego and insecurities that would interfere with advancement of these goals.
5.2.6. To ensure his submission to the Dominant is adequate to fulfill Her needs.



6. CONCLUSION

6.1. This agreement shall serve as the basis for an extension of our relationship, committed to in the spirit of loving and consensual Dominance and submission with the intent of furthering self-awareness and exploration, promoting health and happiness, and improving both our lives.
6.2. We both understand that cancellation of this contract means a cessation of the control stated and implied within this agreement. Upon cancellation, each of us agrees to offer the other his or Her reasons, and to assess our new needs and situation openly and lovingly. I, Bill Smock, with a free mind and an open heart, do request of Amanda Butler,  that She accepts the submission of my will unto Her and to take me into Her care and guidance, which we may grow together in love, trust and mutual respect. The satisfaction of Her wants, desires, and whims are consistent with my desire as a submissive to be found pleasing to Her.
To that end, I offer her use of my time, talents, and abilities. Further, I ask, in sincere humility, that, as my Domme, She accept the keeping of my body for the fulfillment and enhancement of our sexual, spiritual, emotional, and intellectual needs. To achieve this, She may have unfettered use of me any time, any place, in front of anyone, as She will determine. I request of Miss Manda, as my Domme, that She use the power vested in Her role, to mold and shape me, assisting me to grow in strength, character, confidence, and being, and that She continue to help me to develop my artistic and intellectual abilities, and my abilities to serve Her. This i, bill, do entreat, with lucidity and the realization of what this means, both stated and implied, in the conviction that this offer will be understood in the spirit of faith, caring, esteem and devotion in which it is given.
 SIGNED

   /  5-30-2015
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The submissive /Date
  / 5.30.2015
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The Dominant /Date

Monday, July 6, 2015

I am here

I will come to you in the silence
I will lift you from all your fear
you will hear My voice
I claim you as My choice
Be still, and know I am here

I am hope for when you are hopeless
I am eyes for when your worth you cannot see
In the shadows of the night,
I will be your light
Come and rest in Me

Do not be afraid, I am with you
I have called you by name
Come and follow Me
I will bring you home
I love you and you are Mine

I am strength for when you are despairing
Healing for the those times you dwell in shame
All the blind will see, the lame will all run free
And you will know My will


I am the path that will lead you to freedom
I am the peace the world, to you, cannot give
I will call your name, embracing all your pain
Stand up, now, walk, and live in purpose.

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Second Guessing

Warning: This blog post will be chaotic and unorganized.


There's only one thing in this life that sets My tail feathers on fire.... to be made to second guess Myself.  

I don't mind constructive criticism.  We all grow from that.  Alright, well of course I mind it, I am a bit prideful... but I can take it and work with it just fine.   Those who don't know Me or who don't approve of My methods and styles I simply don't care about their opinion enough that it would even give Me pause to doubt.  

When, however, I'm told that I don't do enough to remind someone of their place in My life... when I'm truly being called 'too soft' My tail feathers surely do burn My skin and I begin to question....

I have said a thousand times I do things differently than most.  I'm strict and stern yet loving and fun.... I can play a game of uno with you and still maintain control... I don't live the Pro-Domme life nor do I reside in a porno.   If you want Divine Bitches... I can give you the site address. 

I'm sensual, romantic, caring, thoughtful, and I enjoy to see My slave happy and content... why?  Because when My slave is happy and content they are more apt to enjoy serving and want to do it more....I don't want someone to serve Me because they fear Me... though I do expect a level of respectful fear to indeed be there. 

During scenes, playtimes, etc... I will not hesitate to be a bitch.  I will push when I know it's safe to push... and I've learned in life that when someone 'says' they are ready and when they are truly ready are two entirely different times.   But during the day to day, the mundane... I expect that the rules, extensive rules I might add, the schedule, the control, and the power exchange are what remind one of their place... not Me being a bitch or unloving.

Today however... I question that.  Perhaps I am too soft.  Perhaps I love too much.  My personality, My way of life... maybe they aren't cut out for this?  Maybe that's the answer to the question all along.  No one stays because I'm not cutthroat enough.... 

Treating people like they are valuable treasures seems to get Me nothing more than them feeling like kinky friends.... I guess it's time to reevaluate what I want... who I am... and why I'm here.